Difference....

got 1 guy wan make friend wit me...
i dun know dis is good things 4 me o not...
but i try my best....
actually...i feel happy also...
becoz...dis is my fiz time...got sumone wan make friends wit me...
he sms me everynite....
sweet a bit...


let me intro dis guy...
he study f6 in jit sin...
now he same wit me...waiting result...
my friend~hui ling...she gave my h/p 2 him...
i juz think tat....
he is my friend...
not others...
ya...
dis is my feeling...
it's true...


i dun know wat happen 2 us in d future...
i juz wan care about my things onli...
coz...i dun wan fall in love again...
quite suffer...
i cannot endure dis pain anymore....
but now...
my feeling is change a lot...
so different...
i feel more confident...
n more happiness...


pt...he has contact me last night...
i juz chat wit him 4 a while onli...
he can feel nothing n chat wit me so friendly...
so...
it's so sure tat i wil give up dis guy totally....
i dun wan hurt myself again...
so...
i juz make friends wit others...
n...change my lifestyle....
now....i do....

ALL I WAN...ALL I NEED...

"secret"...
u c....
i'm very greedy...rite???
hehe... in d book...got 1 method...2 improve our lifestyle...
now i wan follow dis rule...
juz think wat u wan n wat u need...
n den juz list out all of dis...
wat u really wan in ur life????
dis question is very important...
actually...
i dun know wat d things is i really really wan...
when i sit in d library in jusco...
i read dis book...
n den i try 2 list all d things...
so many le...



1.my life become more wealthy...
i hav a car...
i hav a job which salary is high....
i hav a banglo...
i buy clothes...not need 2 c d price...
2.i enter U...
University Malayan....
study nutrition...
n i can go with myself...
kl....
3.i hav my own style...
a style which is attractive...
i can follow my own fashion...
havnot copy others....
4.my family is very healthy...
all my friends is always happy...

okay...dis is wat i wan...
i'm happy now...
i wil concentrate 2 wat i need in my future...
so not need 2 remember d past...
dis is d way 2 success...
i trust tat all of dis can achieve in my future...
n...i'm waiting...

SECRET

yes....
i'm okay alr...
hehe...

1 day onli....
i become better...
becoz i read 1 book...called"secret"...
very meaningful...
becoz...
dis book teach me...
thinking is very important....
thinking can change our lifestyle...
fiz...i juz trust a bit onli...
but now i believe alr...
i quite agree tat...
our life is not LIMIT...
becoz all d things beside u is coz of ur thinking....


ya...really....
i know dis guys havnot like me...
but i still wan do something 2 him...
dis is my fault...
not him....
all d sadness...all is becoz of me...my thinkin...my mind...
not him...
it's me...i influent my mood...
not him...
so...
dis book...
i really learn more...
coz...
i try 2 let me live in hapiness...


my friends...
dun worry about me...
now i noe wat things tat i muz do...
so...i'm thinking of my future...
d past which is full of sadness...
i wil delete it...
i promise...
i'm never let another tears drop fall...
okay???


i wan make my lifestyle is full of happiness n perfect...
dis is my choices...
i can make any choices in my life...
dis is UNLIMIT...
so....
hehe...
happily ever after....

FEEL HURT

i din slept yesterday...
i dun know why...
i asked myself so many time....
why he can answer me so fast...
my heart really really hurt...
but i cannot tell anyone...
they dun noe my feeling...
why he treat me like tat????
why???
when i talk wit my friend~yk....
he said actually pt know i like him alr...
but he din refuse...
why???
why he know my heart...
he still wan receive my valentine gift....
y he kissed me when his birthday...
i know dis is normal....
but i dun think so....

why????
anyone can tell me y???
i really cannot accept dis fact anymore...
anyone can help me???


boyfren????
no....
i dun need...
frenz....
they juz tell me...
"dun think so much"...
family...
"u r so young,ltr u wil find others tat better than him"...
but...for me...
i juz wan got someone...
juz tell me....
>>>i understand ur feeling....


nvm....
i can take care of myself...
it's ok...
i can....totally give up dis cheaper guy>>>pt....
he's very selfish....
so...
i wil make him regret....
i dun wan be a loser in love again....
i'm serious...


cheaper guy....
when u need me...
u treat me so nice n kind....
when u dun need me...
u can din hav contact me anymore...
i wil remember it....
nvm...
i accept....

START MY NEW LIFE

i called him juz now...n asked him very clearly...
actually i know d answer...
but i still wan a confirm answer from him...
so...sure...i get answer aly....
maybe i'm very stupid....
my best friend~mc....also advice me so manytime...
becoz of mc....
so i can get d confirm answer from pt...
n...then i can give up so fast...
thanks a lot ya...mc....


after i get d confirm answer from him.....
my heart is very relax...
i tell myself...
from now....i can love myself totally...
i dun need 2 share my love 2 others...
now~17/02/2009....
i wan make me become more pretty....more attractive...
hehe....i'm free....free 2 be me....


in valentine day....
i'm quite touching....
coz got 1 guy....he gave me a gift...
although dis gift quite cheap a bit...
but he came 2 my shop from penang...
so...i think...i also muz talk clearly 2 him...
i'm not love him....
i dun wan give any chance 2 him....
becoz....
my heart still fall in love with someone...
i'm a human also...
i need a period of time....
i need time 2 give up dis guy...
altho i accepted him alr...
but i feel quite sori 2 him...
sori....
i think i wan calm down....
i really need a period of time....
may be 1 day....1 week...1 year.........
i dun know....
but i know i can face it very optimistic....


START MY NEW LIFE NOW................

好眼泪坏眼泪。。。。。T.T

好眼泪坏眼泪
我曾 认真 深爱著一个人 他给我幸福的可能
我等 我问 未来何时发生 他只是给我一个吻
快乐 我哭 是因为你的手 曾答应带我向前走
难过 我哭 是因为我的手 找不到你说的以后
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过 在你不再爱我了以后 剩坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐 我哭 是因为我付出 得到你温柔的答覆
难过 我哭 是因為我認輸 你的心永远留不住
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之后 有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之后 有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪著我



everytime i listen dis song....
i wil cry...
because....i wil think about him....
i try 2 give up but cannot...
now...
i force 2 give up...
because...
i noe he havnot love me...
he treat me juz a friend onli...
so...
from now....
i should give up...
dis is d onli way 4 me....
miss ong siang ying...
2009 year alr...
muz give up....
muz find others...ok????
promise....
dis is promise 2 myself....
2day(13/01/2009) is my last time 2 cry because of him....
i wil always smile...
SMILE...

LONELY

i worked at jusco juz few day...

many couple come n bought their new year clothes...

actually...i'm very admire them...

i'm not admire tat d guys paid all of d bill...

but i juz admire got someone give advice,suggestion n he willing accompany their gf lol...

stupid ho...

maybe many people think tat i request my bf is d rich man...good looking...tall than me...

but actually i din care all of these...

dis is true...

i juz wan he concern about me...accept all of my defect...most important is...he love me...

when i need him...he will be d first person come out 2 give me console...n make me smile...

dis is wat i need...wat a girl want....

2day(29/12/2008)...my friend wedding...she smile with blessedness...

many people give well-wishing 4 a couple...

me too...i hope they can be a sweet couple forever....

dis called "forever love"...

bt at d same time...i think about me...

y???y i cannot same with d bride???

tat guyXXX...he also worked in jusco also...

i worked in jusco...actually becoz of him...becoz can meet him everyday...

but i feel unhappy...becoz i wan wear pretty sometime sexy a bit when i worked...

n i feel tat he take care himself n yk more than me...

feel heart-broken....ya...he isn't my bf...y i wan feel sad?????

but i really care lol...

i delete his msn alr...i dun noe y...i dun noe...i dun noe i wan continue love him or juz give up...

nobody give me d confirm answer...

dis feelin i din share wit others...so...write blog is d way 2 release my sadness...

i did a very very very stupid thing....

i juz wan 2 see him...i walked 2 d watson(opposite his work shop) 2 buy a lotion about RM10.50...
stupid ho???see him muz pay money 1....

dis lotion i gave my mum alr...

i think i havnot dis appotunity 2 do dis stupid thing again...

becoz...i wan abdicate...i cannot selfish like this....

my mum always fetch me go 2 my frenz house which is so far away...

so...i muz take care my mum first....

dis is also d best way...2 give up...

nvm la...i still got family members who love me more than others...