Difference....

got 1 guy wan make friend wit me...
i dun know dis is good things 4 me o not...
but i try my best....
actually...i feel happy also...
becoz...dis is my fiz time...got sumone wan make friends wit me...
he sms me everynite....
sweet a bit...


let me intro dis guy...
he study f6 in jit sin...
now he same wit me...waiting result...
my friend~hui ling...she gave my h/p 2 him...
i juz think tat....
he is my friend...
not others...
ya...
dis is my feeling...
it's true...


i dun know wat happen 2 us in d future...
i juz wan care about my things onli...
coz...i dun wan fall in love again...
quite suffer...
i cannot endure dis pain anymore....
but now...
my feeling is change a lot...
so different...
i feel more confident...
n more happiness...


pt...he has contact me last night...
i juz chat wit him 4 a while onli...
he can feel nothing n chat wit me so friendly...
so...
it's so sure tat i wil give up dis guy totally....
i dun wan hurt myself again...
so...
i juz make friends wit others...
n...change my lifestyle....
now....i do....

ALL I WAN...ALL I NEED...

"secret"...
u c....
i'm very greedy...rite???
hehe... in d book...got 1 method...2 improve our lifestyle...
now i wan follow dis rule...
juz think wat u wan n wat u need...
n den juz list out all of dis...
wat u really wan in ur life????
dis question is very important...
actually...
i dun know wat d things is i really really wan...
when i sit in d library in jusco...
i read dis book...
n den i try 2 list all d things...
so many le...



1.my life become more wealthy...
i hav a car...
i hav a job which salary is high....
i hav a banglo...
i buy clothes...not need 2 c d price...
2.i enter U...
University Malayan....
study nutrition...
n i can go with myself...
kl....
3.i hav my own style...
a style which is attractive...
i can follow my own fashion...
havnot copy others....
4.my family is very healthy...
all my friends is always happy...

okay...dis is wat i wan...
i'm happy now...
i wil concentrate 2 wat i need in my future...
so not need 2 remember d past...
dis is d way 2 success...
i trust tat all of dis can achieve in my future...
n...i'm waiting...

SECRET

yes....
i'm okay alr...
hehe...

1 day onli....
i become better...
becoz i read 1 book...called"secret"...
very meaningful...
becoz...
dis book teach me...
thinking is very important....
thinking can change our lifestyle...
fiz...i juz trust a bit onli...
but now i believe alr...
i quite agree tat...
our life is not LIMIT...
becoz all d things beside u is coz of ur thinking....


ya...really....
i know dis guys havnot like me...
but i still wan do something 2 him...
dis is my fault...
not him....
all d sadness...all is becoz of me...my thinkin...my mind...
not him...
it's me...i influent my mood...
not him...
so...
dis book...
i really learn more...
coz...
i try 2 let me live in hapiness...


my friends...
dun worry about me...
now i noe wat things tat i muz do...
so...i'm thinking of my future...
d past which is full of sadness...
i wil delete it...
i promise...
i'm never let another tears drop fall...
okay???


i wan make my lifestyle is full of happiness n perfect...
dis is my choices...
i can make any choices in my life...
dis is UNLIMIT...
so....
hehe...
happily ever after....

FEEL HURT

i din slept yesterday...
i dun know why...
i asked myself so many time....
why he can answer me so fast...
my heart really really hurt...
but i cannot tell anyone...
they dun noe my feeling...
why he treat me like tat????
why???
when i talk wit my friend~yk....
he said actually pt know i like him alr...
but he din refuse...
why???
why he know my heart...
he still wan receive my valentine gift....
y he kissed me when his birthday...
i know dis is normal....
but i dun think so....

why????
anyone can tell me y???
i really cannot accept dis fact anymore...
anyone can help me???


boyfren????
no....
i dun need...
frenz....
they juz tell me...
"dun think so much"...
family...
"u r so young,ltr u wil find others tat better than him"...
but...for me...
i juz wan got someone...
juz tell me....
>>>i understand ur feeling....


nvm....
i can take care of myself...
it's ok...
i can....totally give up dis cheaper guy>>>pt....
he's very selfish....
so...
i wil make him regret....
i dun wan be a loser in love again....
i'm serious...


cheaper guy....
when u need me...
u treat me so nice n kind....
when u dun need me...
u can din hav contact me anymore...
i wil remember it....
nvm...
i accept....

START MY NEW LIFE

i called him juz now...n asked him very clearly...
actually i know d answer...
but i still wan a confirm answer from him...
so...sure...i get answer aly....
maybe i'm very stupid....
my best friend~mc....also advice me so manytime...
becoz of mc....
so i can get d confirm answer from pt...
n...then i can give up so fast...
thanks a lot ya...mc....


after i get d confirm answer from him.....
my heart is very relax...
i tell myself...
from now....i can love myself totally...
i dun need 2 share my love 2 others...
now~17/02/2009....
i wan make me become more pretty....more attractive...
hehe....i'm free....free 2 be me....


in valentine day....
i'm quite touching....
coz got 1 guy....he gave me a gift...
although dis gift quite cheap a bit...
but he came 2 my shop from penang...
so...i think...i also muz talk clearly 2 him...
i'm not love him....
i dun wan give any chance 2 him....
becoz....
my heart still fall in love with someone...
i'm a human also...
i need a period of time....
i need time 2 give up dis guy...
altho i accepted him alr...
but i feel quite sori 2 him...
sori....
i think i wan calm down....
i really need a period of time....
may be 1 day....1 week...1 year.........
i dun know....
but i know i can face it very optimistic....


START MY NEW LIFE NOW................