LONELY

i worked at jusco juz few day...

many couple come n bought their new year clothes...

actually...i'm very admire them...

i'm not admire tat d guys paid all of d bill...

but i juz admire got someone give advice,suggestion n he willing accompany their gf lol...

stupid ho...

maybe many people think tat i request my bf is d rich man...good looking...tall than me...

but actually i din care all of these...

dis is true...

i juz wan he concern about me...accept all of my defect...most important is...he love me...

when i need him...he will be d first person come out 2 give me console...n make me smile...

dis is wat i need...wat a girl want....

2day(29/12/2008)...my friend wedding...she smile with blessedness...

many people give well-wishing 4 a couple...

me too...i hope they can be a sweet couple forever....

dis called "forever love"...

bt at d same time...i think about me...

y???y i cannot same with d bride???

tat guyXXX...he also worked in jusco also...

i worked in jusco...actually becoz of him...becoz can meet him everyday...

but i feel unhappy...becoz i wan wear pretty sometime sexy a bit when i worked...

n i feel tat he take care himself n yk more than me...

feel heart-broken....ya...he isn't my bf...y i wan feel sad?????

but i really care lol...

i delete his msn alr...i dun noe y...i dun noe...i dun noe i wan continue love him or juz give up...

nobody give me d confirm answer...

dis feelin i din share wit others...so...write blog is d way 2 release my sadness...

i did a very very very stupid thing....

i juz wan 2 see him...i walked 2 d watson(opposite his work shop) 2 buy a lotion about RM10.50...
stupid ho???see him muz pay money 1....

dis lotion i gave my mum alr...

i think i havnot dis appotunity 2 do dis stupid thing again...

becoz...i wan abdicate...i cannot selfish like this....

my mum always fetch me go 2 my frenz house which is so far away...

so...i muz take care my mum first....

dis is also d best way...2 give up...

nvm la...i still got family members who love me more than others...

Hero-mariah carey

There's a hero if you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul and
the sorrow that you know will melt away
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
It's a long road when you face the world alone;
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within your self
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
oh....Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Just Hold on,
there will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you
that a hero lies in ... you
mmmm that a hero lies in.....you.



i love dis song very much...
very meaningful...
when i listen dis song...
i feel tat...
i cannot give up my dreams although dis is difficult 2 achieve...
so...touching....
love it very very very much...

你会遇到几次恋情？

你会遇到几次恋情？
如果你有男女朋友了，你觉得底下那件事会是你们最喜欢做的事呢？ A.一起到沙滩漫步 B.一起逛街买东西 C.一起到咖啡厅喝下午茶 D.一起聊天或是看电影














选择A： 你会遇到的恋情在2次以下你是个很重情的人，也很珍惜目前双方的感觉，所以你不会主动背叛，若是顺利美满，这辈子可能就此相偕到老，厮守终生。只是死心眼的你也最不能承受情人的背叛，一旦对方对不起你，你便有可能放纵自己，甚至可能因此轻生寻短。


选择B： 你会遇到的恋情可能连自己都数不清你很随性，也喜欢结交不同的异性朋友，常常是看对眼就在一起，不顺眼就分开，所以你总是恋情不断，却几乎从来没有一段感情是真正让你有印象过。也许随着年纪大了，或是婚姻的承诺与束缚，你才可能收起那份放荡不羁的轻狂岁月。


选择C： 你会遇到的恋情是3~5次你不习惯跟异性聊天谈心，即使有了对象也是一样，让人捉摸不定你的想法，对你始终没有安全感。所以一旦发生误会，即便你心里在怎么不愿意，对方都可能因为你总是不解释原因而愤然离去。你的恋情都很长，却不容易妥善维持


选择D： 你会遇到的恋情5次以上你太习惯定义爱情，也喜欢对另一半颐指气使，不肯真正用心去关心他的感受，为有失去之后你才可能恍然大悟，想要好好珍惜，对方却不再给你任何机会。有一次经验学一次乖，一般来说大概五次，你便知道如何拿捏异性的心理情绪。





oh my god...i choose D a....
pls...
i juz wan 1 time only...
i dun wan....

11.12.08

i dun noe i make dis surprise 4 her is correct or not...
but she is my friend...my best friend...so i try my best 2 give her happiness...
i hope she has a memorable birthday...


dis is d last time we 6 person 2 hav a dinner 2gether...
me...lc...pt...yk...sy...ck...
becoz after dis we wil busy in our job n our future...
so...i also scare we hav not dis chance 2 meet 2gether...
i really begrudge them...becoz i love them so much...
but i dun noe they love me or not???
maybe they r lie???
or maybe they juz pretend in front of me???
sometime i confuse...
but now...i din care about dis...
i give up all d negative thinking...
shi fu said...
if u always care or mind d useless thing...
how 2 make ur life full of happiness...
so...i juz follow my feeling...
'i love them'...


for d guy XXX...
i really give up...
it's incestuous...
he is my brother...so i muz control...
hi hi...
success half half la....
i think he also recognize me is his sister...
so...
i can control very well...


ho....ho...ho...
all my work is finished liao...
quite relax now...


so...
i give my work about 60%...
becoz...d food still not so delicious....
so...
still ok lol...
at least d food is ripe fully...
ha ha...


LI CHUEN...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...o(∩_∩)o...

confidence

2day i go shoppin wit my mum...
she buy a dress...about RM300.00 something...
4 me quite expensive...
i ask my mum...y u wan buy it???
she juz said...pretty lo...n when u wear it u wil feel confident...
quite a simple answer...
i realize tat confidence is quite important 2 a girl/women...
i havnot confidence...
my mum also discuss dis problem wit me...
becoz...i'm a faintheart...
actually...
i hav a lot of confidence when i'm f5...
becoz i feel tat i can handle anything...
i can try my best 2 do anything...
but when i'm in f6...
i really lost my confidence...


bio...pa...che....especially math...
i really cannot handle...
i feel so frustrate...i really defeated by stpm...
i weep away every nite...
quite pressure...
always study...
sometime enjoy...but sometime dun noe how 2 overcome my pressure...
bt i quite admire myself becoz i can went across tat time...


now wan 2 concentrate my english...
i hope my muet can get band 5...
dis is my aim...n my target...
i wan set a target 4 myself...
i wan improve myself...
i hope i can speak english fluently...
although speak is not a big problem...
but my vocabulary n pronounciation still got problems....
hope i can utilize dis holidays 2 improve my broken english...
dis also my rout of retreat...if i cannot enter my dreaming U...
i wil apply air hostess...in singapore...


i also wan 2 learn how 2 'primp' from my friends...
like make up..beauty costume...correct posture....
i hope i can do better...
n attract more gaze of many people...
i'm a girl also...
desire 4 perfect body shape'S' shape...
pretty face...set store by name plate...
i noe i'm realism...
dis is my style...i dun wan lose 2 others...
i wan i can improve myself in both extrinsic n intrinsic...
i hope i can do it...


i realize now...
i think i give up all d sweet memory from XXX now...
becoz...
i dun wan waste my time...
i noe d 'THE END' alr...
y i still wan relapse into trap???
so...juz wan 2 do somethin 4 myself...
u c...
i love myself than i love others...



in my life...
maybe i havnot a couple...
i havnot d true love...
i havnot sweet memory wit a guy...
but i hav my family...
i hav d true love from my mum n dad...
i also hav sweet memory wit my family members...
so...no guys...i also can survive...rite???


hope i hav confidence continue 2 achieve my ambition n desire...
hope tat i can improve myself everyday...
add unsaturated oil...osY...

04122008

i went 2 juzco 2day wit my friends...
i feel i'm very alone...no best best best friends....
i mean best best best friends is she/he wil noe anything about me...
i noe dis is impossible...


2day is my last day went out wit XXX...
i wil control my feeling...
i believe i can control...
i trust i can....
i dun wan fall in love wit someone who is shorter than ma...
i dun wan...
i also noe than they wil refuse me....
i scare dis feeling...
maybe we'r be brother n sister until 4ver...



got 1 friend support me go 2 find my true love...
but i cannot...
2 time liao...2 time i really fall in love wit someone who shorter than me n smaller than me...
actually i dun mind...
i really dun mind height of guys...
but i noe they wil care lo...



i remember got 1 model...she taller than me...i think about 180cm...
she said d taller girl should not fall in love wit someone easily...
if not she wil suffer...she wil feel hurt....
becoz many guys cannot accept his girlfriends taller than him...
i dun believe early...
but now i trust alr...
so i muz control all my feeling...
included my feeling 2 him...


ha ha...got 1 indian praised me lo...
he said me can be a air hostess...
he also praised me look nice n slim n tall....
ha ha...quite happy nian....
maybe i havnot confident 2 myself...
becoz many person call me "LALAT" n "AIRfIELD"...
so...if someone praised me like tat i wil feel quite happy n excited lo....
hi hi....o(∩_∩)o...



lastly....
b4 i go 1 bed i wan 2 say...
i love u...
i admit i love u...
but i should quit...becoz...
i noe got many girls more suitable 2 u...
hope u hav a nice n pretty n softness...girlfriends....

bye bye stpm

finished liao lo...
2 years...i put all my effort...in dis stpm...
how about ur exam??my mum always ask me dis question...
i juz answer...ok ok ok...
but actually...i dun noe i can get As or not...
or i can enter my dreaming U or not...
i feel very upset when i think about my future...
wat job tat i wan 2 do or how 2 save my first gold bucket???
i hav a simple dream...
when i'm 25...i muz hav a car-myvi...later 30-volvo...
before 30 i hav a house...
simple???
sometime i juz aspire for wealthy...
becoz i feel tat if 1 person hav not enough money....he cannot survive in dis realism world...
maybe i'm very materialistic...
but i'm also a person...
dis is my style...


my f6 life is over...
i love all my friends tat all i met...
shamini...andrea...pt...yk...lc...sy...ck...n more...
all sweet memory i wil keep in my mind...
always...
i'm hate high school b4...becoz i dun understand english...dun noe how 2 speak...
n communicate wit my classmate...
but now i can handle anything although is normal only..
i wan 2 say thank u 2 them...


i admit i fall in love wit some during dis 2 years...
i'm totally din show anything 2 tat guys...
becoz too close alr...maybe we can make friends until 4ever...
i refused all tat guys who 2 woo me...
so sorry...becoz...i juz wan 2 concentrate 2 my future...
in my mind...love is nothing 4 me...
if d god wan 2 let me alone whole life...
i also can adapt it...
i can live without any dependence...
but cannot without my family members...
i noe nobody wil dote me as my family members...
i din trust all d person or my friends fully...
but i believe tat family member always stand beside u n behind u all d ways...
dis love...i's very esteem n cherish now...


so...i plan my life seriously during holidays...n i wil go 2 d camp 2 enrich myself...